Creating Spaces

Last year, I felt like I was living in a season of constant change and upheaval. Have you ever noticed that happening, where you plan to make one major life change and then all of a sudden it seems like every single other possible major thing in your life that could change chooses that exact moment of your life to also change? I sort of believe that life has seasons, like last year was a season for change, for becoming a grown-up. And I’m beginning to believe that this year, this moment of my life, is a season of growth and embracing uncertainty.

Recently, my time during the week opened wide up, although the downside to now having more time is giving up a job that brought in a stable-ish income (it’s never really stable when you’re freelancing and paychecks aren’t regular and jobs can end at any time. But I love being my own boss, so it’s worth it). However, I was starting to feel like I never had time to really pursue my dreams and plans for my business because I was investing my time in someone else’s. A year ago, losing a major source of income would have knocked the wind out of me, but in this season, I’m learning to let go and make room for even better things to come. Rather than acting out of fear and immediately jumping into something else to make up the money, I’m instead giving way to learning new things and embracing new projects and plans of my own. I’m investing in myself in non-monetary ways (like reading and finding new hobbies) and giving myself a chance to make great things happen.

As part of making room for the better things the future will hold, I decided to do something totally crazy and physically create spaces for some new things. I don’t know what those new things will be – right now they are just empty circles on a piece of sketchbook paper – but I know there is a “hole” in my time, and it won’t take long for it to be filled – it always gets filled, and sometimes overflows. Instead of feeling stressful, though, this time of uncertainty now feels like a new adventure and I’m actually excited to see what cool experiences end up in those spaces.